I have spent the day so far being very quiet and reflective. Letting iTunes choose the sounds and reading some old posts from friends on their blogs....it has inspired me to put my thoughts onto the screen.
I do wonder why we blog...it's sort of like a diary or journal but is potentially very public. I wonder who reads what I write, if anyone...I often censor what I put so as not to offend anyone who stumbles upon my ramblings! Then I read the blogs that my friends have written, each one as unique as the people who write them, yet each as inspiring and interesting as you could possibly imagine. I hear their voices as if they were telling me their stories face to face whilst sharing a drink and piece of cake and also glimpse aspects of their lives and personalities that I didn't know before.
Over my 40+ years on planet earth I have wasted a lot of time wanting to be someone else...anyone else! Other peoples lives have always fascinated me...however I am beginning to realise more and more that I have a good life. I have so many people in my life that I love and who love me. I am married to my teenage sweetheart and we are as much in love now as we were all those years ago, we are looking to the future and dreaming about what it may hold for us. I have three children, my babies...they will always be my babies...who are growing into the most amazing young adults. I have so much love for them...yes they have each presented me with challenges and I am sure they will continue to do so! They have also provided me with the greatest rewards...being a mother is my life's best work...
Then there are all the amazing, creative, loving and nurturing women that I have met, too many to mention but all have made their unique impressions upon my heart.
I am enjoying discovering who I am...from being a small girl I knew that children were my future. I worked hard to become a nursery nurse and loved my babysitting, nannying and childminding. I adored being a mummy...and will always treasure this as my dream job!
Then, in 2001, I began a new adventure, training to become a homeopath. I met more fabulous people (you only have to look at my friend list on facebook to get an idea of how many!) and began to trust and believe in myself more and more.
2007 saw me stepping further down the road of self discovery, with the beginning of my antenatal teacher training, I can't believe that I am 2 and a half years along...I have met more gorgeous women. I love the challenge of studying, I don't think I will ever stop! I wonder if I will ever say "yes, this is it, I have arrived where I am meant to be, found out who I am"? I doubt it...
Well my fingers and toes have grown cold from sitting at the computer for so long (how can it be this cold in May??) I feel that I have indulged for long enough there are things to do in the 'real' world so I will sign off for now, thank you for listening!
Big hugs and kisses to all the lovely people who I have met on the road, thank you for inspiring me loving me keeping me sane and even giving me a metaphorical slap when I needed it! Have a cake on me!
